peace,

ian

i asked god: “how do i get the best out of life?”

he answered: “face your past without regrets, handle your present with confidence, prepare for the future without fear.”

then he added: “keep the faith and drop the fear. don’t believe your doubts and never doubt your beliefs. life is wonderful if you know how to live.”

what a wonderful thing i got for a goodnight message. well.. somehow or rather it speaks truth of me. lacking of confidence, cant let go of past and kept doubting my beliefs. CHANGE FOR THE BETTER IAN.

sometimes some people dont know how to show their appreciation for you, however that does not mean that they do not appreciate you being there nor being not concern or whatsoever. believe in their actions and what they do for you, it might be small but think about it.. when small things comes together it always creates an impact. trust me for that.

signing off,

ian

well.. i should start off by talking about my preference about being one? *disclaimer : im not in here to actually criticise what is right what is wrong.

actually.. there are a few reasons for myself that why i chose not to fool around with girls and robbing their virginity.

first is the point that i wanna keep it as a gift to my life partner, to actually show that i did not fool around and she’s the only one.

next of all, is the fact that i would not wanna spoil her life or should i say future. lets think about it. what if she’s not my life time partner and i’ve taken her virginity as my own? for sure people would treat her as cheap isnt it? and on the other hand every husband would want their wife to be pure, virgin. so why should i not give them the last respect they should deserve?

lastly comes with the pleasure part. though some people might take it as an act of love for that instance or they just wanna have fun. to hell i dont care but.. at least to me it isn’t all about pleasure. it must be a special trust, a bond that can hold both minds, bodies and souls together as one thus make love.

peace out,

ian.

another thing is the fact that why people get so easily irritated and pissed off by the beautiful word fuck? what a wonderful word isnt it?, doesn’t it means making love in short? whats wrong when two person in love making it? it is the befalling of the trust of two person in love isn’t it such a great thing? =)

well.. thats all folks.

love ian.

working, under sun. people not appreciating your hard work making your life difficult every single time. having being in a mess of yourself not wanting others to know would just give others a chance to drop more stress and pressure on you agree?

cherish what people had done for you. respect the other party he/she might be suffering as when you’re kidding/joking with him/her.

dont know how dont know why humans everytime have to get facts face to face. they wouldnt go after it to question.

first entry of mine. couldnt fall asleep so i decided to come write something about my fuck-ed up life. MIND my words sorry.

what a life. i know problems is always there is just how we look at it and how we intent to solve it. although i know i should be positive towards certain things.. but.. sometimes just kept bringing your positive thinking down.

if there’s a chance for me to do it right again. i would. but too bad.. it has been named memories.